A movement of heart by aunty

Assalamualaikum w.r.w.b
Sollu alan nabiy

Last Sunday, my aunt asked me "don't you want to go there helping them?" (referring to Rohingya) while we were watching a documentary about the current issue. That question had left me deep in thought. 

It indeed had been my dream all long and that dream still alive in my mind and heart. And that is also a reason I delayed going into marriage. Hikhik. I feel like something is undone. I hope if I were to marry someone one day, he is super supportive and a real #creativeforce. I remember watching a news about muslims in Kosovo where they were denied a place and chased out of the country (and I actually can remember it clearly). I was around 5 years back then and I couldn't understand it when my mom said they were driven away from their own country. How was it possible. I just couldn't brain it with my 5 year old logic mind.  Why must one be banished from one's country?

At the same time, there was (is) also problem in Palestine. Now you know how long Palestine had been an issue. 

Although the 'volunteer' feeling did not appear right away, I always wanted to help those people until my secondary school years, I wish to go to Palestine to offer help eventhough I did not know how. 

And now, I already know the mean I can help but I could not raise my hand just yet. I realize that volunteerism is good but no volunteer is good without knowledge (and experience). I read 'Menghayati Kerja Sukarela' written by Azizan Bahari and that book did taught me a lot about the field of volunteerism. I admit that I feel stupid, so helpless and such a loser but I'm quick at consoling myself that even improving myself is not a bad thing. I'm fully aware that reaching the top at fastest speed is good but continue climbing (even slowly) is no lesser. I admit that sometime I became envious with few friends who can go anywhere freely but I'm sure being here and do good to ordinary people is also 'pahala'.

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I will be there. I will be where my mind had been. I will be where I dream to be. It's just matter of time and I'm working on it. 

Pray for me, aunt :')

'So whoever does an atom's weight of good will see it' 

Al-Zalzalah 99:7