Saturday, August 13, 2016

Me and my twins.

So last year my mom gave birth to twins boy. And this year, a little earlier than expected, my whole family is coming to Egypt. Yayyyyy (please add some more Y). No, I'm not geaduating yet. As I told you, they just came earlier than what was scheduled which is to mean they will not be there on my convocation day. Huhu.

Did anyone asked how old I am? Well actually a bit old to have 1 year old baby twins. Plus I already have 2 niece and 2 coming-soon-nephew. Kannn? If Allah said 'kun', then who are we to deny? Anyway we are so happy la that we got twin😍

Ok, let's just get back to the story again.
Well, you know that Egypt has so many valuable mosque all around. And mosques touring is a must in Egypt. So, the first day they arrived, I took them there and explained about those historical mosque. And now...time for a pictureeee....

Oh yeah, before I forgot, I need to mention to you that I'm bad at memorizing name eventhough I ask countless of times😢. The case is, I need to have some connection with that particular person in order to remember their name better. Sorry I just need to mention this because it is part of the story😁

Then we arranged ourselve but not formally. Just a fancy photo of us and we can't wish for formal decent family potrait with growing up twins.boys😒😒. It just fact. 

So the big brother was setting up the camera whilst the sister was gathering around him when I found our little cheeky babies still playing around the mosque. Here we go.. 

I played a role as a big sister and took a hand of one of them leaving the other one because I'm sure once the 2mins25secs brother is controlled the other half will automatically be controlled too. Haha. And yes, they were. Easy as peanut butter right?!

But suddenly the 2mins25secs brother blocked one my sister's face. Here is where all my secret got revealed. I wanted to ask 2.25 (refer above) to move a little but I forgot his name😭😭😭 and I was like, to my sister 'hey sape name dia?' and all the families turn to me and 'serius la weii dia dah setahun kottt...'

'Adam. His name is Adam. Senang gila kot nak ingat'. I was sad and feel bad too but still act cool 'Yes Adam, can you move slightly to your left. Everyone want to be in the picture'. And he followed this ungrateful sister of her. Maybe because he still doesn't understand a thing. And thereee...his inside-womb-partner was playingggg!!! And again I would like to call him but I!

Nuh?Alias?Muhammad? No I can't. I screamed to me in my heart 'What the h**l with ya Fathima. Kau canang ukhwah Islamiah, baca buku HAB, khatam Fiqh Dakwah but you don't remember name???' I was about to cry when suddenly...

Tadaaa my baby twins yang I pinjam kejap. Kikiki

'Wei, Subuh,'

Woke up swearing to myself and be like 'mom, I'm the one supposed to have twins'

I want twins, but here I am proudly being single and free.

Thank you for reading this nonsense article. Haha. 
Wish you healthy babies all preggies out there specially my Kak Nyah and Debob😉

Sunday, May 8, 2016


Sollu alan nabi

Saya sering merasakan kesederhanaan bergantung atas individu. Kadang kita merasakan kita sudah habis sederhana, namun di mata orang kita berlebih-lebihan. Contohnya dari segi kekayaan bagi jutawan, mungkin membelanjakan ribuan sehari adalah sederhana baginya namun tidak pada pandangan si miskin.

Namun, buku ini mencerahkan. Ada panduan menjadi sederhana. Ada garisan yang mengukur kesederhanaan kita. Yang pertama adalah niat! Tentu sekali, apabila berbicara tentang niat maka kita ingat kembali pada hadis pertama dari matan arbain. Setiap hal perlu lurus kerana Allah. Kebaikan amal tersebut akan kembali kepada kita.

Kembali kepada perbincangan tentang sederhana. Saya akan bawakan contoh sahaja untuk pemahaman yang lebih jelas

1) Dalam konteks sebagai pelajar (sekarang musim exam pon ye dok): seorang pelajar begitu rajin pagi hingga malamnya terisi dengan mengulangkaji dan menelaah. Malangnya pelajar ini kurang perhatian pada sahabatnya. Sakitkah atau laparkah. Barangkali juga pelajar ini yang jatuh lelah kerana berlebih-lebihannya dalam belajar. Sedangkan dia perlu menunaikan hak atas dirinya, keluarganya, sahabatnya dan tetangganya. (Pelajar yang malas jangan gembira dulu ye ;p)
Seorang lagi pelajar mungkin bijaksana maka dia menghabiskan masanya dengan perkara-perkara yang lagho dan sedikit sekali waktunya terisi untuk menuntut ilmu sedangkan itulah tanggungjawab seorang pelajar. Maka, dia dikatakan telah berlebihan dalam kemalasannya. Jadi solusinya?

2) Ibadah. Jangan tak percaya ada juga orang yang dikatakan berlebihan dalam ibadah (padahal ibadah kot kan. Mendekatkan diri kepada tuhan kot). Diceritakan pada zaman Rasulullah terdapat sahabat yang berhasrat berpuasa sepanjang tahun. Lalu Rasulullah menegahnya dan Rasulullah menasihatkan untuk merayakan Aidilfitri. Reward diri yang dah berjaya tahan lapar sambil ziarah jauh serta dekat. Bagaimana bersederhana dalam ibadah?

3) Makan dan minum. Apakah tujuan makan dan minum? Ya sekadar untuk menghilangkan lapar dahaga supaya kembali cergas melakukan ketaatan. Jika makan sampai tak muat perut tahulah apa jawapannya. Begitu juga jika langsung tidak makan konon-konon berdiet sampai nak angkat takbir pun tak larat.
P/s: makanan tu sila habiskan. Rasa nak dush dush je orang yang tak reti habiskan makanan ni

Okay boleh la tu contoh dan gambaran kan. Kesimpulannya, sederhana ini tergantung pada niat, tujuan dan cita-cita. Mengapa ingin kaya? Kenapa taknak kerja? Kenapa nak ada kereta rumah mewah? Kenapa nak duduk tepi jalan? Semuanya, jika jawapan tidak menuju Allah, maka itulah yang dikatakan berlebihan baik yang dicitakan itu hal yang bagus atau sekadar kecil-kecilan.

Perbetulkan niat, tunaikan hak, lakukan dengan bertunjangkan iman dan bervisikan akhirat.
Sebelum melakukan sesuatu perkara, fikirkan sebab dan akibat serta buruk dan manfaatnya. Jangan lupa...istiqamah! Itulah nilaian sederhana yang sebenarnya.

Nota kaki: Sederhana dalam bercita-cita
Nota kaki lagi: Sederhana dalam melaksanakan cita-cita

P/s: Tanda soal tu jawab tau, jangan biar kosong :)

P/ss: Tak faham tanya k?!

Thursday, March 10, 2016

Ladies, it's our day!

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh
Allahumma solli 'ala saiyidina Muhammad

I hope this is not too late post to say happy International Women's Day eventhough we arw women every day and every day is women day. Yeahhh!!!
Before I go further saying about this woman things, let me tell you something which I can put under my childhoodmemories hashtag (#childhoidmemories). It's new hashtag guys. Haha. Well, like I said, it was childhood age and I was as some of you know hardly behave with ill manner stubborn little girl. There was little time I didn't give my parents headache. Sorry sorry sorry (with SuJu background music) mak, ayah.

I couldn't remember the exact time, date, day when most of us gathered in our new not so new (at least younger than the house itself) living room but I remember what happen then. Chatting, laughing, kidding around and...crying. Yup, me...crying!
M: Actually Imah was a boy but the doctor was so careless that he/she overcut yours during circumcision.
I: *replied with burst of tears and shout all over whilst putting handmade pillow on my face*
M: No lah. I'm just kidding.
So, that was how I hate being a boy. Haha. Although I befriend boys a lot during school years (before I went to all girls boarding school) since my cousins of my generation are all boys *tears*

And I was quite feminist too.

A guided feminist ;p

Let's get to the point ladiesss!
Do you know when was International Women's Day first introduced? To be franks, I'm not sure either. But it was hundred years agi and formerly known as International Working Women's Day. Since then, this day celebrated every year on 8th of March with different issues but the same goal. To empower all women over the globe and to educate us (women) in regard our roles not just ib building steong family institution but also enhancing sustainable society. That so, other than increase our knowledge in our discipline, we also need to expand awareness on current issues especially involving children, youth problem, health care, women politicion, working mothers and many more if you want to list it all!

The feeling is very unsettling hearing news on women oppression in other side of world. Too vex reading about women discrimination (just finished reading A Thousand Splendid Suns, will write a review later) at some part of the world. However, sadder it is, to witness our lucky women in peace and full of freedom, deserted the oppurtunity and worst of it, throw ourselves into very vague things. Chasing for fame, too overwhelmed in extra beauty (we are all pretty enough ok), far too updated to recent fashion yet deficient in covering our nobility and many other things that need improvement.

Remember a verse from Al-Quran (Malay translation):
Sesungguhnya pembazir-pembazir itu adalah saudara-saudara syaitan dan syaitan itu sangatlah ingkar kepada tuhannya (Al-Isra':27)

And also (Malay translation):
Hai anak Adam, pakailah pakaianmu yang indah di setiap (memasuki) masjid, makan dan minumlah dan janganlah berlebih-lebihan. Sesungguhnya Allah tidak menyukai orang-orang yang berlebih-lebihan (Al-A'raf: 31)

And hadis from Rasulullah s.a.w about us (Malay translation):
Berpesanlah kebaikan pada wanita, kerana sesungguhnya wanita itu tercipta dari tulang rusuk dan sesungguhnya yang paling bengkok dari tulang rusuk adalah bahagian atasnya. Jika engkau meluruskannya nescaya engkau mematahkannya dan jika engkau membiarkannya maka ia akan tetap bengkok. Maka berpesanlah kebaikan pada wanita.

Let us spend more on bridging knowledge and improvise whatever we can as a woman. We can change. Shine inside, bright out!

Happy International Women's Day!

Footnote: First and foremost to the writer meself :)

Monday, February 22, 2016

Of Five Genih And Arabic Language

Assalamualaikum warahmatullahi wabarakatuh
Allahumma solli ala saiyidina Muhammad.

IIIslamic classes had started as winter break finished. And when I mentioned Islamic classes it also means Arabic language! Some people say ‘aghhh’ now... So, a famous question from our dukturah.. ‘why can’t you speak Arabic?’. The question that worth 5 genih (can say I was lucky since sorta short of money this month. haha. Alhamdulillah). why so fellow friends and juniors?

Few words of advices:
We (the seniors) have been staying in Egypt for 6 years and you, juniors, will have another you-count-yourself years to finish. However, our ability to speak Arabic very little or perhaps I can say we cannot speak Arabic despite all our rages, rampages, resent towards some annoying taxi drivers, sugar mouthed sellers and gentlenotmen bus passangers.

Why so?
·         We are not Egyptian
·         It is not our language
·         It’s difficult language
·         We are medical student.
Think they are the answers? Big no guys. Seriously NO! If you really think they are the answer, let me tell you, you are not reasoning. But you are rather giving an excuse. And what is the difference between both? When you are giving excuse, that’s mean you are escaping. Yes! You try to escape from a situation that definitely put you well to be blamed. You try to escape from the your own weakness and making accusations on others when the problem actually and clearly is you. US!

When we are in desire of something, with all the effort, power, matter, and whatever we have we will try all out to make it happen. We will use all the abilities and draw anything from surrounding that can help us in achieving our need and make things seem impossible become real! The same ideas go to this case (speaking Arabic). Not because it is difficult (although it is. haha). Not because it is not our language (then, why bother to ask dukturah to learn English???). The only reason is because we are lazy! We are reluctant. We don’t want to. We never want to learn this language at the first place! That is the only reason.

Therefore, I humbly would like to give humble advices to myself and our beloved juniors especially those in 1st, 2nd and 3rd year, for the sake and smoothness of your coming clinical year, go and take Arabic class. Summer break is coming right? So, why not use that time to learn this indeed beautiful language? If you expect to be in  Malaysia, maybe you can have someone to tutor you and familiarize yourself with ammiah pronounciation.

Why not 4th, 5th, or 6th year?
I bet you are not going to have time for extra class especially if you already involved in ‘persatuan’, busy with tuition and ‘anak’? And since you will meet patient those years, don’t you think early preparation is better?

What else can you do?
·         Mingle more with local people. Some are really nice and good. Don’t worry much. Some speak Malay with you :’D
·         Never ask ‘can you speak English?’.Try to understand them and try to speak in Arabic as possible. Unless if you realize the conversation will bring both of you ‘dalal’, then use language that both of you can understand.
·         Find new word every day and use it. I did this few time but most of the time I forgot :’( Sometime you may not use it, but you will understand when people say it. Useful kan?
·         Ask anything. If you go shop and you don’t know anything’s name, ask anyone there. Or you can search the name before going. Takdela sampai habis tahun asyik dih dah dih dah je.
·         Read, listen and speak Arabic. These are basics in learning any language. Practice and have fun with your member!
·         Start now! I don’t want you to regret this time like me :’’’O I’m still hardly studying and practicing Arabic so please pray huh?!

There may be some obstacles like financial (I quit my class because of this) and time (that’s why I prefer long holiday). But there are also lot of ‘markaz’ that offer Arabic class at affordable price and you can adjust according to your schedule. Kena pandai cari okay?
Even to my batchmates, it is never too late. As long as we are alive, we are all in learning process. We ought to learn it if not for the patient, to understand al-Quran better J
So that is all for now. Maybe you have more and better tips to share. If you do, can leave your comment or link it. Hope this is helpful to my ‘adik-adik’ eventhough I may not know you.

Senior nyesal dan masih tatih :’

P/s: Generalizing this. Siapa terasa, terasalah siapa tak, bagus.
P/ss: First and second to myself who write and read this first J

Bittaufiq wannjah!!!

Monday, January 18, 2016

Breaking awkwardness

Assalamualaikum and hyeee!!!

Announcement sikit...

I'm starting again after years of silence. Haha

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