Remember how I dreamt to be in airforce. Liking Nuri shirt (it was Tabung Nuri by Bank Rakyat not sure now still exist or not) just because it reminds me of Nuri Airfighter Craft. Motif gila kan. Oh all the while heard multiple times about Nuri aircraft crushed, never single news shake me. Ended up being a medical student and announced to everyone during orientation day 'I dont want to be doctor, I want to be tentera udara'. Motif juga lagi macam 💩 bila ku ingat kahkah. Graduated medical school, thinking of joining military as a doctor. Met a military doctor in an event, inquired about it. 'Oh, started last year they do not open for grad outside UPNM anymore'. Wow, what a timing. Btw, I respect her (and others as her alike) that she didn't look down on me because of my height knowing that it would be so much at disadvantage. Not like somebody else. C you.
Du'a=the light.
Never once. Ever since I was child with that ambition, burning in my heart. Never once. Until I graduated. Never once.
Never once I put that in my du'a. I can pray as it can make all things possible. Namun, tidak pernah terlintas di fikiran, tergerak di hati untuk berkata 'tuhan aku nak jadi tentera udara'. When I prayed to get excellent grades in every tests, never once He put the thought of asking that to Him. But the thing I always ask is to make me a good doctor, free my patients from my possible mistakes and not to harm them due to my shortness in knowledge.
I wonder, why I never asked god that though I usually prayed for everything I desire.
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And everything falls perfectly to reason. To His knowing, the All-knowers, He plans everything and indeed it is the best plan. I again, put my trust and belief in You.
Thank you, for showing it all at the end of 2022. Guide me to go through 2023. Ease my task, give me peace of heart.
Allow me to be and do what You think is best for me and my akhirah🤍
Will I be praying for that now?
No.
Sollu alan nabi
