A Muslim Reflection On Buddhist

Assalamualaikum and hye everyone.
Sollu alan nabi.

Just recovered from unease stomach after coming back from Kuantan. I think Kuantan is not for me since last December I went there, also got stomach upset and vomited. Or maybe I need to visit Pahang more so my body tolerates well. (As if Pahang is another country pulak dah. You got winter or not, Pahang?)

The story started when I got an invitation from Dr. Kim Chan to join her in medical outreach for Myanmar refugees there. I knew Dr. Chan during Hospital Survival Course and since she personally invited me I felt delighted a bit but confused a bit because a friend asked me to join a retreat in Terengganu. A place I reaaally wanted to go for holiday. Of all days, the retreat happened to be on the same date as the outreach. So after a thought, I decided to join the medical outreach with Tzu Chi and hoping that the retreat postponed the date which was not happening. So sad😔. Hopefully I can join them later.

Although I always had a big aim, this time I just had one focus.
To observe how Tzu Chi's people work.
And how I can improve my teams (yes plural here no mistake. Haha).
Explain why I finally decided to take the invitation and forget Terengganu. Huhu.

Hence, before I went, I pinned in my head that I need to focus on my target. It's okay if I can't do much but I'll make sure to learn something about Tzu Chi. Actually I had been interested with this NGO while joining the course I previously mentioned. Let's take a look on what I've learnt so far😉.

TIME
I have been reminded many times how time is important and its vitality is even mentioned in Al-Quran. Even have one surah specifically explaining about it! But but but...
It is only with Tzu Chi I've seen it is practiced well. I mean I have been to many programs, courses and few conferences. Believe me, with Tzu Chi everything works according to each tick of clock. They followed the schedule closely. I remember my friends and I was late for 7 minutes because I had diarrhea and we arrived late at the course and missed many things already. This time, I was late also because my bus delayed (nyampoh betul😠), I reached bus station at 4.30 am and rushed to Jing Si hall which is half an hour by car and the bus will depart at 5! Luckily made it and moved to Kuantan exactly at 5a.m as scheduled (I didn't see the time, someone said so just believe then haa😁). Reached Kuantan and everything already set up by the committees that were there a day before.

MANAGEMENT
Also not lying for this one, but the organization was nearly perfect! I could see that, maybe they had many volunteers, everything went smoothly. Plus, as they excellently work on everything as per scheduled I hardly seen anything messed up during the event. Everyone works diligently at their specified post and the refugees who came to the clinic knew (with the help of the ushers) what to do next and next. It looks like a real clinic. The documentation (almost) like the one in hospital, comfortable waiting area (thanks to the big hall) and well-equipped staff. Got portable bed, partition and dentist chair (is there any specific name for it?). I was amazed with the dentistry area. Some refugees even had their tooth retracted there.

STABLE FINANCE
This I talked with Dr. Chan because I'm curious how they maintain to fund every refugees family each month, pay for the school, give free medical aids and many more. No wonder Tzu Chi has sustainable finance since they got continuous support from a generous businessmen. Besides, Tzu Chi people themselve very committed in donating for their organization. Mashaallah. This act of giving is instilled since a young age and it is very amazing how they become a devoted donor without people asking for them to give. Mashaallah this really make me reflect upon myself because I failed to do so for my so called beloved ABIM Mesir. Shameful! Hopefully I can do better when I had stable job and become dedicated donor. Ameen. Maybe own a business also to support the movement. Ameen.

RECRUITMENT (I like the word 'kaderisasi' better here haha)
If you went back to MANAGEMENT point, I did mention about they having many volunteers. They really have a lot. You can confirm with my friends on this. We were stunned by the number! I think because a member like Dr. Chan, a big number of volunteers is possible to achieve. I heard her name many times by different people. It was a simple start and she welcome everyone. And the best thing is, she is not the only one with that spirit. Dr. Eddy, Madam Ng, Miss Fanny and many more give their best to bring more young people to the field of volunteerism. And they cared so much for people who works with them. I was touched. Thank you Mdm Ng and his son Aaron for accompanying me to TBS😊😙

There is still a lot, but I think I'll just share just all the above because I think it is important to have a firm grip on those four to make a good/better organization. Especially the TIME part.. fellow Muslims, we can and should do better on this💪. The rest I'll keep to myself. Haha. And if you can foresee, all of these start with one person. Me and you. It is perhaps true that your group leads and gives you the platform, but the changes is on us. If we don't have any intention to do better then nothing will happen.

In some way, it is true that religion do not define you, but your behavior do😎😉


Now go on with your job.

Thank you for reading hope you gain something and till next post!

How I Moved On. Finally.

Assalamualaikum wa rahmatullahi wa barakatuh.
Sollu 'alan nabi

"You are about to overcome something you've been dealing with. Your mind and heart will soon be at peace again. Be patient. Everything will be okay"

Above is a quote I read while scrolling my instagram account. It reminded me to my fabulous 2017. Yeah let's just say it as such *eyes rolling up*. Guys I'm taking you to my past. And it's not something nice. Haha.

So most of my friends have known my struggle in 2017. It was indeed the toughest year of my life (if I can say. Housemanship nanti taktau la macam mana :,D). I still remember the 2 occasions that took away 2 of my dreams. Isn't this sad guysss? Now cry for me. But I do not wish to tell what was happening. Maybe later time or not at all. It was a total dismay because it was happening consecutively. Kira sudah jatuh ditimpa tangga la.

It took some times for me to regain my strength and focus. Alhamdulillahi rabbil 'alamin Allah sent me many angelic people to console me. My parents, family and my friends. Thank you *insert beating heart*. So I moved on. Or so I thought. Not realizing that I still had anger inside me and still disappointed with what was happening, I just continued my life normally. Life must go on I thought.

Unfortunately that was not the case. Deep in my heart, I was unable to fathom the situation. There was guilty and overwhelming feeling. I was actually torn up and little did I know I was bleak. But Alhamdulillah no deppression (I diagnosed myself. Hiks). As a consequence, I never had a good sleep. For months! Half of the year, I got the same nightmares that woke me up with sweat and fear. I thought the same thing happening over and over again. Ya rabb, now I came to understand how person with nightmare feels. It's totally not good. You feel sick, you feel haunted and afraid.

So one day, I took time back, thinking and pondering. I have been saying that I already moved on, I accepted the fate befallen. I talked to Allah and then I believed maybe I was not sincere enough when saying all the counseling to myself. That day, I really decided to let go absolutely. I talked to Him clearly and as loud as only my ears can listen. Because I said in Malay so I write Malay also here. This is what I said:

'Ya Allah, aku ikhlas terima semua ujian Engkau, aku ikhlas memaafkan dan aku memohon ampun'

Then I closed my eyes, took deep breath in and let out. And Subhanallah, right after that, there was no more nightmare. I sleep peacefully and my EEg now stable and pretty. Ok I never do this test, just assuming. Haha.

Soon after, I realized that there were so many hikmah behind all that took place. Truly, bad things is not always bad. Sometime it's blessing in disguise. I just need to ikhlaskan hati to appreciate what Allah has written for me.

It's okay to be sad, to be disappointed, to resent and whatsoever. For days, months or years. But do not let it takes whole your life, my dear. It's not worth it. It's bad only at moment it occured and when it passed, it's no big deal anymore. It was bearable and you are here living. What Allah said is definitely true, He will not test us with anything beyond our power to control. You can do it. You will go through it successfully. There is lesson to grab and bigger present waiting. Be strong!

Lastly, this is what we call dunya. It can never be the same as jannah. We will be tested here, feel sad. Sometime. Fail the other time. Experience it, go through it with a heart of a warrior, never lose hope with His Rahmah and get jannah inshaallah :)

I hope Ramadan will be the right month for you to clear your mind from anything that burden you and give you peace of heart. Talk to someone ;)

I pray that all of you be given happiness in this dunya and akhirah.

There is door for all of us.

Love,
Imah Rosse

From Doctor to Masterchef

Assalamualaikum and hye everyone.
Sollu a'lan nabi.

We nearly reach half month of Ramadan. I wish everyone good health and calm heart to beribadah despite your busy schedule. How about your Ramadan goal(s)? Hopefully all is well. Let's continue the spirit to do as much good as possible and our momentum to have more taqwa and khusyu. Btw, to those who haven't had any goal, it's still not too late guys! May you find one that will benefit you as a servant. Enjoy this Ramadan to the fullest time really really flies eh eh esok raya. Gitu. So make sure to properly make time for yourself to worship more. Please note that I didn't only mean solat when I mentioned worship ok. It can be in any form as how you like it.

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Today mak asked me to cook tuna. Usually she will tell me what to cook but this time she asked 'nak buat apa erk tuna?' and then she went to sleep as she was all drained doing groceries. I was alone.thinking.hard. I have nooo idea what to do as I've never cooked tuna before. Why la so many thing I cannot do. Sebelum ni masak merah (nasib sekarang dah power *clap*), ni tuna la pulakkk. But let's not worry, google is sometime a blessing guys. Haha. After 15 minutes of scrolling and investigating (any recipe that takes time was rejected. Refer previouss post) I finally found a recipe. Maybe not new for you but come on, please welcome this newbie ok people?

It was Tuna masak lada putih!

Never heard of it and tok asked me twice to confirm it. Yes tok, your cucu like new thing like that.

Thanks god, it was a very very simple recipe and as a rebel will always rebel, I modified it and made it even simpler. Haha. So all you need are...

-Garlic
-Onion
-Ginger
-White pepper
-Cabai burung (mende tah english dia btw original one dont include this but I letak because my family like pedas-pedas sikit)
-Tamarind (the original recipe put asam keping but I think tamarind give better taste)
-Salt

This is how you do it:

Crush all first four ingredients. Fry them (jangan sampai hangit takkan ni pun taktau kan), put water (however much you need) and lastly tamarind (not too much otherwise it is no different than masak cuka), cabai and salt.

Voila Masak Lada Putih done!!!

Kann I said, very simple one. I don't like serabut. But then I woried :'D. My first masak lada putih. How would it taste like? Since I was to worried with the result, I just let it sit on the pan until my mom came and she served it on the table. I wanted to hide it (konon-konon). As it happened that way, I forced my sisters to try it. But she refused. Grrr. And during breakfast time, I forced everyone to give it a try and guess the recipe maybe I need to do better next time. Then there mak said to tok 'Mak rasa ni mak. Sedap ni,' Walaweh I smiled ear to ear hahaha. No lah, I hid my smile but my heart grew bigger already. Hiks. Thanks everyone for liking my masak lada putih eventhough I don't like it quite bit because it taste soooo common. Sobs. Anyway, I taknak bongkak bulan Ramadan ni but I think I can be a masterchef. Haha. Next time I want to put lemongrass. I think the taste and smell better with it. Next time tu maybe next year k. Thanks for understanding.

And thanks for reading. You can try for berbuka tomorrow ;)

P/s: Do share your favourite recipe!